Saturday, June 30, 2007

Possible Relocation

Well work still sucks.

I bought James Morrison's CD a few days ago. I love it. Its a pretty good CD.

I just got news that we might be relocating to Georgia. I'm happy about that. Not only do I get to quit my current job, but I get to leave this city. The only down side is that I'm not to fond of the sun, but I'll get over it just to move away from here.

My friend wants me to go to school with her. I think I might look into it. I wouldn't mind experiencing dorm life. Every time I think about it I'm reminded of that show Felicity. I loved that show.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

'Life'

So I'm realizing that I don't at all like this job. The pay is crap and I DO NOT like working with people. I need to find a job where I have very little to no interaction with people. I'm not a people person.

I'm also realizing that the older I get the suckier my 'life' becomes. One of my friends is moving up in her life she has a car and she's moving into her own apartment in a few months. She has support though her mom doesn't take her money. In fact her mom does the complete opposite. Her mom actually has to sneak her money because she wants to help her out. Don't get me wrong Im extremely happy for my friend and I wish only the best for her.

Then there's me no car, sucky job, sucky pay, no where near moving out and a mother who cant keep her hands out of my pockets. Yay me. Yay this life I'm living. I want to get unstuck. I know life isn't easy nor is it supposed to be........but seriously.

I really want to cry right now, but I cant. If there is a way out please let me know because I have yet to find it.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

So Far

I just got off of work and so far work is okay, but whenever I have to go in I hate it so much. Its like school.

Last night I hung out with an old friend and shes good, but can I just say 'my, how people change' its amazing really. We went to some parties...all located on the same block. I've never seen people drink like that. That in itself is something.

I went to see 1408 with John Cusack and Samuel L. Jackson. I wasn't expecting it to be the way it was. Actually I don't think I had any expectations at all. All in all its an okay movie.

I love love love this song, its relatable.  (James Morrision Wonderful World) He has a soulful voice. Its soothing.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

First Day

So I had my first day of work, training of course. In case I didn't mention it before I work at a beauty supply store. I think the first day went well I didn't do much but sit at the television and watch tapes. Typical first day of training stuff.

I got a glimpse of their register and it looks a little complicated, but I'm convinced that I can handle it....hopefully.

On the drive home I saw a few more places hiring and I'm thinking that I should apply to those places because maybe they pay more than what I'm getting now. Its all 'about the Benjamins'.

Speaking of pay...I don't get my first paycheck until July 6. Bummer.

My stomach is growling....Feeding time.

Good News

I got the job.

Monday, June 18, 2007

All I can Do Is Wait

So I just got back from my interview, I think it went pretty well. I did everything right. I have no after action regrets.

So cross your fingers for me. She said she had three other applicants to look at and that she would call within the week or next week depending on if I got the job or not. Now....I wait.

The only bad part about this job is that the pay is CRAP. It seems that every new job I get the pay gets crappier and suckier, but its a job and I need the little money I can get if I ever plan to move out.

I went to see Fantastic Four Rise of the Silver Surfer. Chris Evans is a cutie pie. The Silver Surfer wasn't looking too bad either. I don't think I like Jessica Alba, I mean she pretty and all but I think her acting 'talents' are a little limited.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

A Bit of Good News

Its been two weeks and two days since I quit my last job. It seems like it hasn't been that long.

Yesterday I went job hunting and I put in an application at a beauty supplies store and when I walked in the lady at the counter said that they were hiring immediately so I felt pretty good about that....with good reason because at about 1:30 today  I got a callback for an interview on Monday. I'm so excited and hopeful. My fingers are crossed for a successful interview.

I might be making money soon. Which means I can get back on track and head toward my independence aka adulthood. Yay me. Hopefully my mom keeps her hands out of my pockets long enough for me to accomplish that.

Today is my Grandma's birthday and she doesn't even know it. Its not that she doesn't remember its that she cant. She's been living with Alzheimer's and she's pretty far in so she no longer does anything on her own anymore. I wish it didn't have to be that way. The family is throwing her a party at five today. Even though she cant express herself I still believe that at times she's aware of the things happening around her.

To top it off my aunt says she has cancer. Its not completely out of no where, it pretty much runs in the family. The real issue with that is that my aunt is a bit of a hypochondriac so sometimes she fine when she says she's not. So we are hoping that this is just one of those things.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Nothing Good...As Usual

Well Its going on 2 full weeks since I've been out of work and still no luck with finding a new job. Yay for me, I love life.

I've been hearing about a thing that helps place people in apartments and gives them jobs. It sounds good enough. I don't know the details but I kind of want to try life on my own without help, but with my current situation I feel that I haven't any other choice.

I want to catch a train and just go. I don't want to do it alone, but I will if I must. Still I rather not.

I cant wait until the new season of Greys Anatomy starts. I love that show. The cast is great. Speaking of the cast I went to see Knocked Up it was funny I wasn't expecting it to be that funny.

I heard that Isaiah Washington (Dr. Preston Burke) was fired from the show. I wonder what that's going to do to the ratings. I also wonder if they are going to replace him. I guess I'll just have to wait it out.

I lost the hearing in my left ear. I believe its slowly coming back, at least that's what I'm hoping. It happened at Swope Park there was a band there and we were sitting close to the speaker I didn't notice it until it was too late. So now I'm suffering the consequence.

Monday, June 11, 2007

'Must Get Out'

I was watching or reading a thing, cant remember which, it was about the most memorable things in a persons life. One of which is first love. It stood out to me because I've never experienced love and because I know nothing of it, at times I fail to see what the big deal is.

Sometimes...well most times I feel I've nothing to offer. I mean I'm 19 living at home no where close to moving out, I no longer have a job, I don't have a car or even a license. My plan was to be out of the house by 21, but from the way things are going now that'll never happen.

To top it off the money I saved is slowly dissolving. The reason for that is my  mom is a horrible money manager so when she spends too much at the boat/casino or however else she screws up I'm the one she looks to to take over the bills. She knows full well that I'm saving so we agreed that I pay only one bill, but lately she's been coming to me for money. What she borrows is not small amounts so my moving out doesn't look too promising.

I wish there was a way for me to just up and leave and room with someone for a few months. However I end up leaving I hope its soon because I must get out.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Random Stuff

I'm watching The First Daughter with Katie Holmes and I have to admit that I actually like this movie. I don't usually like romantic stuff, but lately I've been a little wrapped up in it mostly because I don't have that. Another thing I cant help but mention is that the guy, Marc Blucas, looks very nice in jeans.

Since were on the topic of the guy when I found out that he was apart of the security team I was beyond shocked, I still am. This reminds me of the other movie where the same events happened with the whole undercover agent and all, but I wasn't shocked in that movie. I think it was called Chasing Liberty.

Last night I watched Spanglish. I love that movie. My favorite part is the part where Paz Vega and Adam Sandler are on the beach conversing about life with children and the choices they have to make as parents, its cute. I like the emotion in that scene. I also liked the touch of humor. (Paz standing in the wind)

There's a sonic commercial where they were talking about tea and the the guy in the passenger seat said something about there being 48 letters in the alphabet.....hilarious!

I was watching Rob Thomas' live performances on YouTube (Solo and Matchbox 20) and the thing I love about him is that he seems passionate about what he does. He also seems to enjoy it. I hardly ever see anyone that shows passion for what they do, so I admire Rob for that. I want to know what drives him or what drives anyone with that passion.

I wish to know that kind of passion.

Monday, June 4, 2007

Just Stuff

Sometimes I like this song and sometimes its just annoying. I guess today is a day that I like it. My favorite part is, "...we all look like we feel..." I think this is very true no matter how hard a person tries to cover up their feelings something about them always gives them away. I like to think that I'm good at covering up my feelings and sometimes I am, but there are times where there's just no hiding.

I often try to justify the things that I do. For example, I'll buy something and I will not open, use or wear it until a 'special' occasion. Then when I come to finally use the item again the occasion is still not appropriate, but I end up using the item anyway and I justify it by saying to myself that there is never going to be an event appropriate enough so I might as well. Nothing exciting ever happens in my life so what's the big deal. Right?

I went to Wal-Mart today with my friend we were looking at the video recorders and we were jokingly taking pictures of each other and somewhere along the way she said, "Alright that's enough pictures, you know I'm ugly." All of a sudden she's become so aware of herself. It worries me.

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Not likely

I love love love Daughtry, especially this song. My favorite part is, "...but these places and these faces are getting old, so I'm going home."

I feel the same way. Everything in my life here is getting old, as a matter of fact everything is beyond old.

I want to leave, but I don't think that is ever going to happen for me. As I've said before I feel as if I'm stuck in this town. I'm no longer moved, motivated or inspired by anything and I strongly believe that the cure is for me to change where I live and the people in my life.

My friend confided in me. She told me that she felt as if she was going to die single. She was sad. She hasn't had a boyfriend ever she thinks there is something wrong with her. I keep assuring her that she perfectly fine but she refuses to believe it. Her self-esteem is very low. Besides being there for her I'm not sure of what else I can do for her.

Saturday, June 2, 2007

I Finally Quit

All of my job troubles at the hotel are over. I quit a few days ago. I'm not yet sure how I feel about it. Usually when I quit a job I feel relieved, this time I don't feel anything. Oh well. The only minor downside to my quitting would be the fact that I'll no longer get to see the infamous smiles of Justin and James.

Me and some friends got together and we chilled, it was nothing special but we hardly ever get together so I thought I'd mention it. One of them bought some Smirnoff and they were having a good old time with it I don't drink so I  just watched the events as they took place. They tell me, jokingly of course, that I'm a square. I'm not I just think people do stupid things when they drink and I'm choosing not to be apart of that.

I've been putting in applications left and right, most of them online, but hopefully I get a call back soon. I'll need money if I ever plan to get out of this suffocating city.

I went to Best Buy and bought Maroon 5's new CD, It Wont Be Soon Before Long and I have to admit that the first time I listened to it, I hated it. I usually know that I like a song within the first few lines, but with this CD I just wasn't feeling it. I am now happy to say that I listened to the whole thing a second time and I'm completely in love with this CD just as I was with the first one. Way to go guys!

 

....Very sexy picture!!

Speaking of a comeback band I was searching around on the web earlier and I came up on some more rumors of Matchbox Twenty getting back in the booth for a new album, I really hope its true and that it happens soon.