I was watching or reading a thing, cant remember which, it was about the most memorable things in a persons life. One of which is first love. It stood out to me because I've never experienced love and because I know nothing of it, at times I fail to see what the big deal is.
Sometimes...well most times I feel I've nothing to offer. I mean I'm 19 living at home no where close to moving out, I no longer have a job, I don't have a car or even a license. My plan was to be out of the house by 21, but from the way things are going now that'll never happen.
To top it off the money I saved is slowly dissolving. The reason for that is my mom is a horrible money manager so when she spends too much at the boat/casino or however else she screws up I'm the one she looks to to take over the bills. She knows full well that I'm saving so we agreed that I pay only one bill, but lately she's been coming to me for money. What she borrows is not small amounts so my moving out doesn't look too promising.
I wish there was a way for me to just up and leave and room with someone for a few months. However I end up leaving I hope its soon because I must get out.