Monday, June 11, 2007

'Must Get Out'

I was watching or reading a thing, cant remember which, it was about the most memorable things in a persons life. One of which is first love. It stood out to me because I've never experienced love and because I know nothing of it, at times I fail to see what the big deal is.

Sometimes...well most times I feel I've nothing to offer. I mean I'm 19 living at home no where close to moving out, I no longer have a job, I don't have a car or even a license. My plan was to be out of the house by 21, but from the way things are going now that'll never happen.

To top it off the money I saved is slowly dissolving. The reason for that is my  mom is a horrible money manager so when she spends too much at the boat/casino or however else she screws up I'm the one she looks to to take over the bills. She knows full well that I'm saving so we agreed that I pay only one bill, but lately she's been coming to me for money. What she borrows is not small amounts so my moving out doesn't look too promising.

I wish there was a way for me to just up and leave and room with someone for a few months. However I end up leaving I hope its soon because I must get out.

1 comment:

lost112406 said...

You need to get away from that situation.  Get another job close to where you will live.  Contact a community organization that can help you find an apartment, education, a job.  Your mother is having you pay for her problems and that's wrong.  She brought you in to this world and needs to take care to remember your needs as long as she's on this earth.  I'm 40 and have a 20 year old.  I no longer support him, but I don't make him help support me either and I'm there for him if he needs me.  I have two other kids that I do support.  Their needs come before my own.  That's what a mother does.