Wednesday, August 22, 2007

I love this song.

Not much happened today. It was my day off. So I did some homework and crap.

My friend got accepted to some program at school and she's really happy about it. I guess I'm happy for her. I hope she sticks with it. When she called to tell me about it she also wanted to tell my mom about it and my mom told her how proud she was of her.

I'm not sure why, but my mom felt the need to tell me that she was just as proud of me too. It made me mad. It was like 'even though you're not doing much with your life and your friends are going places, I don't want you to feel left out just because you suck'. Oh well.

I am so fed up with school, teachers and homework. Every year its the same shit. It makes me mad to the point where I don't want to do anything in life. Its like forget work forget school forget it all.....Stay positive.

Until next time....

Friday, August 17, 2007

A lot has happened since I last wrote, but every time I go to actually write it, it never seems like much. 

I went to see Rush Hour 3 it was funny. I've picked and signed up for all my classes. Good news...they're all Internet classes so I don't have to go on campus at all. The only time I would actually have to go on campus is when I need to print crap.

This remix is off the chains!--Randomness--

So I got paid today. My check looked like I haven't worked a day in my life. Yay me. There's no way I can even try to be independent with these wages. My cell phone bill is half my paycheck. Life is good. Still looking for a new job, but with my luck it will never ever happen. Story of my life.

I know I shouldn't act like I have it horrible because in reality I don't, but I want my own place car and life and its just hard. I never expected it to be easy, actually I pretty much always expect the worse out of everything and everyone. Life always disappoints. Good for you if you've experienced the opposite.

I have plans to purchase a car in September, so we'll see what obstacles gets in the way this time.

I weigh 134 and I'm 5'11 I hope to loose 10 pounds over the winter months. I want to be thinner. I want my high school weight back. I'm so goal oriented.

Untill next time....

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Jotting

I haven't written in a while so I thought I'd jot a few lines.

I finally have my own cell phone plan separate from my moms. Now I don't have to worry about her running up the bill. I really do hate her most of the time.

School is about to start soon. I wish I didn't have to go. I really hate it. I don't like the people, I don't like homework and I don't like getting up early. Since I don't have a car the only time I have a ride is in the morning. I cant go to evening classes because my mom is STILL in school herself and her classes are in the evening. Its stupid.

I'm still looking for my way out of this place. Still haven't found it, which is not surprising seeing as how its me who is looking.

I found out that my 16 year old sister is making out with 24 year old guys in parks. She also drinks with said guys. I used to care about what she did but now I really don't give a fuck. I had the talk with her and everything I told her I'm here as long as she didn't lie to me and all that crap, but she lied to me about her extracurricular activities so its not my problem. I sincerely mean that. She's not my responsibility anyway, I'm just related to her.