Monday, October 20, 2008

Random Writings.

We're in the proccess of moving. We've know about it for a while, but for some reason we are just now starting to pack. We have to be out by next Monday. I hate packing and moving. I have to do it again a month after this move.

I paid all my bills off this morning. It feels good not having that in the back of my mind, but shit do I hate it. As the saying goes, "When did we grow up? and How do we make it stop?"

Im moving out in November. Im excited, but I need to get a car before then. It shouldnt be too hard as I've been saving for one. I dont have one now because Im a horrible HORRIBLE driver. I've already totaled one car about three years ago after that I just stopped driving. I guess its time to hop back on the horse. Its like riding a bike right? Or was that the saying for sex?? One can never remember.

Jessica.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Stuck.

I am stuck in a period of my life that I know I should have passed long ago. The only way I know to describe it is by saying it sucks. I feel like I'm being left behind.

I'm twenty one and my life is just as it was when I was twelve. NOTHING has changed.

I'm ashamed of my reality and I don't really want to type it. To add to it, it doesn't look like it is going to get any better.

People say that I should be positive. Why? It doesn't change anything...ever. Some would say the same about being negative, but at least I wont be lying to myself.

My life sucks so bad.

I want to move away from here. Chicago sounds good. I hear that there are cabs everywhere. I could transfer schools....

On top of it all. I think I might need anger management, but hey stay positive right.

Until Next Time...

Jessica.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

New Blog Home.

AOL has decided to partner with Blogger. So it looks like we get to keep our old blogs. For this, I am happy. I officially take back all the negative things I said, although in the moment I meant them.

I have to go to work tomorrow. I hate my job it sucks so bad. On top of that they keep hiring new people. I don't have a problem with this its just that I don't want my hours being cut because of it. I'm moving out soon and I need all the hours I can get.

Speaking of moving out I should be excited, but I'm not. I'm not sure why either. Maybe its because I know something will go wrong. It always does. I'm expecting the worse that way I wont get let down when everything goes south. More than likely it will.

I kind of like this new blog home.

Until Next Time...

Jessica.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Ugh.

Thanks to AOL I've been on the search for a new blog home.

No luck.

One site was way too complicated for absolutely no reason. Another one marked my blog as spam.

Oh well. I guess I'll blog here until...the end.

My blogging days are numbered.

It's been raining. I love the rain. Its revealing.

My job gets suckier by the day. They are making all the employees go through GREAT training. I don't even know what it stands for. On top of that it has to be on one of our days off. I think its paid so that makes it better, but the idea of it pisses me off.

Ugh. I hate everything.

I need a way out.

Until Next Time...If not...

Its Been Real.

Jessica.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Happiness Eludes Us.

I'm sure people are sick and tired of today's youth complaining. Well its today Im young and surprise surprise I'm complaining. Lets get to it then.

I hate my job and life sucks.

Nothing ever changes, save for the weather.

Happiness eludes us, and what few moments of pleasure we get only show us how empty and meaningless the rest of our existence truly is.

My weed smoking friend tells me and I quote, "I have to stop smoking for three weeks so I can pass the test for a job I want." Honestly I hope she doesn't pass. Maybe then she'll smarten up, but then again I'm reminded of who I'm talking about and for her smartening up is not likely. I'm starting to loath her entire being.

Until Next Time...Although I'm not sure there will be a next time seeing as how the blogs will soon be demolished. (Thanks AOL) So if not..

Its been real...

Jessica.