Friday, April 30, 2010

Friday Frustrations.

I haven't seen my guy in about a week or so. I miss him terribly.

I've yet to get an actual interview from my job search.

I'm so close to just saying fuck it and keep the job I have, but I really want to work in the city, it would be so much more convenient.

Ask me anything

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

TMI Tuesday #234 - Celeb Edition

Who is one celebrity you would like to:

Cuddle? --Will Smith
Elope with? --Johnny Depp/Rob Pattinson
Love? --Gael Garcia Bernal
Excite beyond words? --Josh Hartnett
Bang? --Brad Pitt/Jude Law
See in bed with their current fling? Gabriel Aubry and Halle Berry

Bonus (optional):Tell us about one encounter (if any) that you've had with a celebrity.
Umm, years ago when I was working at a hotel gift shop I saw Bow Wow walk through the lobby he had a concert that night. At that same job Mike Epps and his posse came into the shop. I forget what he bought, but he was in town for a comedy show.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

TMI Tuesday #233 - (Repost of #72)

1. Commando: Sexy or disgusting? Do you have a "best" commando story?
Commando is sexy and a little sleezy at the same time. Be free...why not?

2. Foreplay: Is there such a thing as too much?
Hmm for me if I start to go insane, then actual penetration is needed....soon.

3. Oral sex: Good if you are getting? Good is you are giving? Equally ewwwww?
Oral sex is good both ways....most times. When giving it, its more enjoyable when I initiate it on my own rather than him requesting it.

4. Orgasm: Is one per night enough or does the first one just get your motor running?
One is never enough.

5. Morning sex: "Oh hell yes!", "Well if I have, too." or "Just get in the shower and go to work."
Morning sex...hmm. The Nice New Guy seems to be big on morning sex. In AR's blog I rode the fence on morning sex and coffee. So my answer is...'Well if I have to.'

Bonus (as in optional): Have you ever had anonymous sex? Have you ever had an orgasm without at least knowing your partner's last name?
Don't think so.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

More Emailed Questions.

You and Lover seemed like you were really into each other, why did you pick the Nice New Guy over him?

Um, I don’t know. Lover and I were really into each other, but we also had our issues, some of which I never wrote about. Some of those things were too much to look past. When it was good it was great. When it was bad it sucked, which is why we had so many breaks. The Nice New Guy is nothing like him. He handles himself in a completely different manner, which is still at times so new to me. The only similarity is probably the fact that they can both get angry pretty quick and they both fancy cigarettes.

How did you and Lover communicate if he hardly ever spoke?

Hmm. I had to learn to read between the lines. Meaning, I paid close attention to his facial expressions and his body language/movements. I had to be a mind reader of sorts. It didn’t bother me because that’s how he is, I accept it. We’re all different. It wasn’t like he was a mute; he just didn’t go around carrying conversations with people for the sake of being social. He is not personable, but it works for him. Ive become more of an observer and less of a talker because of him, especially when it comes to meeting new people....old habits die hard.

Why don’t you post pictures?

I don’t know really. It’s not that I don’t want to or anything, it’s just something that I haven’t done. Lately I’ve been thinking of changing that. We’ll see, I guess. I've actually been taking lots of interesting photos.

Would you ever go back to Lover?

I probably would have, if I didn’t know the Nice New Guy. Not because we had something great, but because it worked for me. It was easy not feeling obligated. We did what we did and that was it…for the most part. Something he did a few years ago put in stone that I would never actually commit to him…I won’t go into it, I come out looking weak. Some of you already know.

Have you met any other bloggers in person?

I like talking to other bloggers. It’s like talking to old friends sometimes, but I’ve yet to meet any of them in person. I had a dream I went to a Blogger Convention and so many people I ‘knew’ was there. Twas very interesting.

Give us some really dirty details about you sex life with the Nice New Guy.

Hmm...where to start. I'm getting all I can stand, but I always want more...I'm wearing him out. He's very tentative to me and my needs, his erection is beautiful and strong. Often times he can bust a nut and keep going for a whole new round...without pause. I really really appreciate that...there are no words.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Emailed Questions.

I've been slacking on the emails, hopefully this makes up for it.

Now that you're in a relationship, would you ever cheat?

In all honesty, I've thought about it...literally and generally it has crossed my mind and my answer is, no. I wouldn't cheat. I've seen and heard what cheating can do to a person and I cannot imagine putting someone through that. Another reason as to why I wouldn't cheat is because I don't have an excuse for it, nor do I foresee one arising. If it does happen to come to that then we shouldn't be together.

Why do you like the LP Guy so much?

Actually, I think Ive already answered this one, but I'll go ahead say it again. Hes seven years older than me. I dig older men. Hes a guys guy. Hes honest, blunt and doesn't hesitate when he talks to me. He loves his job, which I find amazing and rare. No subject is off limits, he has an eye for detail and we mesh well. Plus he introduced me to Chevelle. Bonus...hes an AWESOME good it deserved all caps. Texting is of my favorite things.

You have mentioned having a threesome with another woman, have you always been attracted to women?

Hmm. No, this is a new development of sorts. I've always admired the beauty of a woman, but I've never really seen a chick and thought, 'Damn I'd like to get in them panties.' With this whole threesome thing my views have since changed, for the cause.

Whats the news on the threesome? Will you post about it?

Talks of it have simmered down. Other, more important, things have been taking place so the threesome thing kind of got put on pause, but I am one thousand percent sure that its still something he wants to do. More specifically, the talks slowed down when I mentioned our third being a male....he didn't like that too much. His mind doesn't open that way, I guess. If it happens I will definitely post about doubt.

Why did you take a lot of your blogs down?

I didn't think anyone would notice actually, but I took them down because it was a completely different time when I wrote some of that stuff and a lot has changed. I didn't want any confusion as it were. Everything written by Lover was taken down because that chapter has ended. I'll probably re post some of them soon.

What is better, sex with Lover or sex with the Nice New Guy?

Too different to compare. I wouldn't know where to begin and I don't think I should.

Are you ever going to have sex with the LP Guy since he's your favorite?

At one point I wanted to...badly...and I would have, but during that time I was with Lover and I have a one at a time personal rule. To answer the question, I don't foresee it happening anytime soon, if at all for that no.

Why haven't you posted about any encounters with the Nice New Guy?

Well. Good question. I don't have a good answer though. Ive been writing about the encounters. I have billions of drafts, but every time I sit down to write one I never seem to finish it....then the moment is lost and I never come back....soon though.

You said that Lover was intense at everything he did, even sex. How does the Nice New Guy compare?

Lover being intense is an understatement. He is the king of brooding intensity. The Nice New Guy is the exact, complete, polar opposite of Lover. On the intensity scale to 10...Lover is a 30. Nice New Guy is a 4. Sex included.

Why don't you write about any other men?

Hmm. Good question. I guess no other man has left any significant impact on my life that urges me to write about them. Maybe I'll start doing flashback posts...Millions of things are running through my head...should be fun.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Complete Opposites. Irrelevant.

I like to keep people I know in separate boxes. In other words, I keep different groups separated. I don't know why that is, its just how things happened. So when someone tells me that they want to meet someone from another group, I hesitate...not because I don't want them to meet, but because I don't think its a good idea.

I was proven right when I introduced a childhood friend to some friends from high school...bad vibes all day, but this isn't about that.

Now, I'm all about bringing people together, but things are different when it comes to certain people. For example...and the reason for this post...the Nice New Guy wants to meet Rob the Roommate.

Its not a big deal on paper, but in reality I just don't feel good about it.

Its like Affliction/Tapout meets Vans/Sonoma.

I remember an issue Lover and I used to have about me not introducing him to my friends and family. He thought I was hiding him, which wasn't the case, but in all honesty who would want to meet someone who rarely ever speaks back when he's spoken directly to? He couldn't care less about first impressions. Lover is the type of guy who is not going to change for anyone, what you see is what you get. (I applaud him for a certain extent)

Rob the Roommate is rude in a different way. If midway into the conversation he stops giving a fuck, he'll tell you. If you say a word that doesn't have any logical definition (oh, ah, um, hmm) he'll stop listening.

The Nice New Guy is the complete opposite. Hes personable, he smiles and can talk about anything. He knows so much, it amazes me sometimes. (Swoon)

All of this is irrelevant.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Selfish Sacrifice.

The LP Guy...

I've always said he was my favorite.

I've always said that I had a deep deep superficial love for him.

I've always said that I'd marry him for no other reason than our highly entertaining conversations.

I meant it....but it seems my posting about him will come to an end.

The reason for this new and devastating development....Nice New Guy.

I don't have anything to hide from him so whenever the LP Guy messaged me I didn't run to another room to talk to him because I didn’t think it was an issue. (all the LP Guy and I ever do is talk. He lives an hour away) Well, turns out my guy doesn't like the idea of the barely present LP Guy. (maybe I should have ran to another room)

I completely understand where he's coming from, regardless of that slick shit comment I just made. In all honesty, I don't want to stop talking to the LP guy. It seems like I've known him for forever it makes me unhappy not to talk to him, but I get it.

All this adds up to me being selfish.

Here’s why...

I don't want to not talk to the LP Guy, but I don't want to draw lines in our conversations as the Nice New Guy mentioned as an option.

Objectively it would seem like I don't respect my guy enough to do the right thing, but in my own defense that's not true. I more than respect him; I can only hope he knows that. Which is why I'm going to cut the LP Guy out altogether instead of drawing lines...because once again, I'm selfish.

If I can't have the sprinkles, I don't want the cake.

I fell into deep superficial love with him because of his outspoken, unrestrained won't be the same if I tell him to stop all the things I like and to alter who he is just so I can keep him around.

Once again, if I can’t have the sprinkles...I don’t want the cake.

I'm going to justify this by saying that if I continued to talk to him after my guys request not to, our conversations would not change in content, thus damaging our relationship.

Back to reality.

It may not seem like it, but in my own sick, twisted way the Nice New Guy does come first.

Maybe I'm not selfish at all.

In fact, one could see this as a small sacrifice of sorts...hmm.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

TMI Tuesday #231 - Sexual Healing

1. Name one thing that turns you on with unprecedented success.
There are many things that turn me on, but the one thing that gets me every time is when I am told what is going to be done to me.

2. Quick! Look around you and name 3 ordinary items that could be used sexually.
Tide Bleach Pen (Nice shape and size)
Hair Scarf

3. Do you consider sex good even if you don't orgasm?
Yes. Its not often that I don't orgasm, but when I don't the feel of him alone is quite enjoyable.

4. If you could be the opposite sex for one day, what sexual position or act would you like to experience from the other side?
Doggy Style because it seems to be a favorite to many people...and Side Fucking because its my favorite.

5.Describe a sexual fantasy in 10 words or less.
Sex in the stacks.

Bonus (optional): Pretend you're a doctor and a patient has come in with an "ache". What is your course of "treatment"?
Take these, get laid and call me in the morning with details.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Just In Case.

Someone asked me why I wake up so early. No matter how late I stay up I can always get up at or before 11 or 10. Its rare that I sleep in past those times unless I'm under the weather or I over did it the night before.

I'm a just in case early bird.

Rob Thomas said it best.
'I should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something.' (Unwell)

Life sucks hard sometimes, but I feel like there's always a chance that tomorrow will be okay if I start off early.

Sleep. Wake up. Survive. Start over.

Saturday, April 3, 2010


I am still thoroughly pissed off from the past days events and the more I think about it the worse it gets, which will prove to be a serious problem. I'm glad it happened.

I've said this before, but I have ZERO tolerance for people who think things are owed to them just because they exist.

Sorry life doesn't work that way....Get fucking used to it.

No one owes you shit. ESPECIALLY not me.