Sunday, July 25, 2010


"Ever get so bored with your life, you're afraid your gonna do something stupid?"

-Mojave Moon

Too familiar.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Yearly Review.

Still no new developments on the job front, but at my current job we just had our yearly reviews and long story short I got a pretty good raise.

I heard through the grapevine that we were going to get raises this time around, (last year we didn't) but no one was expecting it to be anything great. In fact, I'm so fed up with this job that I was going to quit if my raise didn't make it to the next dollar bracket, but it did and all is well.

I am still going to continue my search for a job closer to where I live now.

Saturday Memory.

Once the LP Guy told me that he loved me, obviously he couldn't have been serious, but he went on to say, ‘Why else would it hurt so much when you blow me off? It explains why I can’t go a day without hearing from you. It just sucks because I’ve never met anyone that I vibe so well with. It doesn’t happen often. I don’t know what to do.’

Always entertaining, that one.


I stood 6'3 up.

We were supposed to meet for drinks, instead I went to a barbeque.

I almost feel bad about it, maybe I'll reschedule. He's good conversation.

Sunday, July 18, 2010


Its interesting how we hang onto certain things and experiences as it impacts our lives. Its like we never truly move on, and when you think about it how can we? There will always be that thing or moment from the past that sticks with us forever because the impact of it was too great to be let go.

Or maybe that's just me.

Every now and then I catch myself drifting back into old habits due to some of the things I hang on to, which is proven to be a not so good thing...but what can you do, right?

Monday, July 5, 2010

Random Thoughts.

I feel like I am going through life waiting for something monumental and good to happen. I get to a point where I'm just on auto pilot until the next big thing comes along. I know better than this of course. I have to make things happen for myself, but when I get into that type of a rut, it takes a little time getting out.

I want to get back into reading. I've stopped and now I need that great escape from reality....especially now that things feel like they're caving down on me. I'd like to start a new long series, something completely time consuming.

My job search has thus far resulted in four interviews and zero callbacks. I don't really have much to say on that except...cant win em all. In my defense I really did try...Honest, I did. I was good, but someone else was better, I guess.

It seems as if the more you let someone in the easier it is for them to tear you down, even if they re not trying to. I let the NNG in completely and it seems like he lacks faith in me when I 'dream big' out loud to him. Its not a fun feeling.

Monday Music.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Quarter Life Crisis.

Well the holiday is here and guess who has to work??


At least I get time and a half, which will be a nice surprise, I'm sure.

I am having a quarter life crisis and here is the outline of it.

-I've been at my job for three years come December and I barely make over minimum wage.
-I'm going to be 23 and the world is slowly slipping from my fingertips.
-I've been looking and interviewing for new jobs and I'm not having the greatest luck.
-I have bills that my current job cant really cover.
-To top it all off my car started leaking oil.

My next step in life will hopefully change all of this.

Fingers crossed.