Monday, June 27, 2011

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Random Thoughts...

I’m still working at the casino and yes I still really like that job….but I want my life back. It’s not that I really did much to begin with, but I want the option to get out and live...

The NNG decided it would be a good idea to rub in the fact that I do not have nights and weekends off with him. “When is your next weekend off?” He says, “I do fabulous things without you.” How nice of him to rub that in for me huh? As if I wasn’t already fully aware of how much of a life I do not have now that I have this job. So needless to say, even though I really like my job, it is time for a new one…for more reasons than one.

In other news the NNG finally bought himself a truck….FINALLY. I am probably more excited than him because for me this means having my car, privacy and respect for my general things back to myself. Not to mention the cessation of tiffs over whose turn it is to fill the fucking thing. Finally my car will stay clean as opposed to the frustrating, unnecessary mess he leaves after EVERY use.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Ahh Love...

Lately the NNG has been asking me more often if I will be with him forever. I honestly can't imagine anything else.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

....

Theres always something and its always the same.

I really wish I could get into it, but it would literally take FOREVER.

I'm over it.

"Its time to get the guns and its time to shoot some fish." Vince Vaughn

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Ah Love...

The one thing I absolutely hate about the NNG is that he has an unnerving gift for making me feel like a complete dumbass. No matter what it is.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

More Random Things.

So for the summer I'm going to take yoga classes. I really want to take an art class, but I want to be active somehow. I suppose I could do both, but working grave...it would have to work out with my sleep schedule and be somewhat affordable.

I sent the NNG a clothed, semi explicit video. It was the first one I ever sent him. He had no idea it was coming, but he loved it. Its a sexy game for me seeing how and what I can do to get him going and distracted while hes out working.

I don't know if I mentioned this before, but a while ago I used to have nightmares. They went away for a full year I think, but now they're back. I don't know whats up. Some of them are really disturbing and can bother me throughout my day, not often does that happen, but it sucks either way.

Random Things.

Lately, the early mornings have been my favorite time of day. I'm usually alone and at complete peace with myself as opposed to my unusual stressed inner monologue as of late.

My mind has been going a million miles a minute about EVERYTHING. Mostly my life with the NNG and the decisions we're starting to make together. Its on my mind constantly. One, because I've never had to make big decisions with anyone before and two, because I am often at a crossroads as to what decision is the RIGHT one...etc.

I trust him and us so I'm sure I'll work it out.

Ive decided that for my birthday I want a FULL spa day...the works. My birthday isn't until July, but I know it wont be cheap so I told the NNG last night thinking he can start saving for it now. Ha. I hope he gets it for me. This is the first year that I know exactly what I want.

We've decided to redo the guts of our place before we get a house. It seems more practical, but agreeing on the furniture will be the problem. We don't have the same taste. I'm more into sleek and modern, hes more into whatever the opposite of that is.

We will see.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Decisions, Decisions.

So I've made the decision to take piano lessons and some sort of other class this summer. If I don't, I'll become a homebody and I'm too young and fine for that to happen. Ha.

I really want to take some pole dancing classes or pottery classes. Once upon a time ago I used to be completely indulged in art and creating things. I was a drawer and a painter. I miss it.

I also wouldn't mind a kick boxing class.

Hmm....

Monday, April 18, 2011

Hmm.

Ever look at someone and be completely disgusted by them and all the things you thought you loved? Its an oddly familiar feeling.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Moving Forward

The NNG and I have been looking to rent a house together. I love the idea of us making a home together. I would feel less like a squatter. He assures me that I am 100% wrong on that.

The best part of this is the fact that we seem to be moving towards something in our relationship. We're not at a stand still and our commitment to each other is reaching a whole new level. This makes me happy. I think we are starting to understand one another a whole lot better each day, so that helps.

Speaking of happiness...the NNG quit his job. He just walked right out of there. He couldn't take it so he left for break and never went back. I was so happy and proud of him. He hated that place and now he is free of it. That's a good feeling...I'm sure many people can relate.

For him this means more doing what he loves and way more money.

As for me, I'm still loving my new job. I'm just recently out of my 90 days, which means I'm making even more money than when I started.

Now we are entertaining the idea of a joint savings account.

We will see.

Friday, February 11, 2011

I know size doesn't matter, but have you ever had the opportunity to have sex with a very well hung guy and done it simply because he was well hung?

My NNG is VERY well hung. The very first time I saw it, my first instinct was to bail. All that aside, my decision to have sex was never based on size.

Ask me anything

Are you following the crisis in Egypt? Do you follow politics and current events in general?

I do not watch television at all at home, only at work do I catch whats going on in the world, though every now and then I may read up on something via mobile browser.

Ask me anything

Do you think that Twitter has replaced Instant Messaging?

I never really jumped on the Twitter train, but I suppose it is possible.

Ask me anything

What makes you happy? What makes you smile?

Cookies. Mmm.

Ask me anything

1st Anniversary.

The NNG and I had our first anniversary this past Wednesday. We didn't do anything extra special to mark the event, although I'm sure it will be remembered.

I really did want to go out to dinner or something...oh well.

What we did do was get four redbox movies and ordered Chinese food. The highlight of the night, for me, was our amazing make out session on the futon. That's something we haven't done in a while. I missed it.

The last few months of our relationship year have been tough ones. There have been times where it hurt so bad I just wanted to give up. I've absolutely cried more in this last year than I have ever cried in my life. I'm sure he could say something similar. The option of parting ways has come up more times than I'd like to admit, but that extremity lost out every time, which could possibly speak wonders about us.

All the low points aside I can honestly say that I have also never smiled, loved, laughed, experimented, or really lived life until I met him. He makes me believe great things can happen.

Go figure.

Monday, February 7, 2011

What Happened To Common Law?

The NNG is trying to drag me along to yet another of his family wedding. Its his brother this time. UGH.

I DO NOT WANT TO GO.

I dont like weddings and I do not want to take time off to go to one.

I would rather work.

FML.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Have you ever had sex with black men?

Yeah. It was a long time ago, in high school.

Ask me anything

Monday, January 3, 2011