Monday, September 29, 2014

National Coffee Day

Getting right to it...

I was two hours late to work on my first day of shadowing. It was completely out of my control. I would have been on time except my car decided to completely stop working on the highway. It was a tragedy. Not only did the car stop working my phone is shut off, which meant I couldn't call for help.

So there I was stuck in morning rush traffic, in a non moving car, on the highway, with no phone and next to zero knowledge about cars. Out of pure frustration I cried...a lot before I made the decision to walk....a pretty long distance just to use a phone to call the Mister, who an hour and a half later called my job for me.

When I finally clocked in management was really understanding and it was no hard feelings...which made me feel a little less like shit.

On the bright side I got a free coffee from QT and a little bit of a workout.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Random Thoughts

Im watching You've Got Mail. Its in the top five of my favorite movies ever...I've probably mentioned that here long ago. That movie is the reason I decided to get a pen pal of my own almost ten years ago.

Its been rocky times here at our little house. The Mister and I just are not seeing eye to eye. I'm not sure how to tell him my feelings without it coming off in a negative way. We are fighting each other at every turn it seems. I'm just to the point where I do not care. Emotionally I am just shutting down. I feel downplayed and belittled and I need a break from it.

In other news I start my job this week. Thursday is orientation. I'm excited to talk to other people. I'm even more excited to have a life outside of the Mister and his house. I don't think he is too happy about it...though I could be wrong.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Ho Hum...

My baby is seven months old today. 

Where did the time go? Shes getting so big so fast. This morning she made some crawling progress. I was told that once they start crawling not to blink, if you do they become angsty, rebellious teenagers who want nothing to do with you...the worst part is no one sees it coming. I can see me now alone in my closet on the floor crying going through her baby pictures while asking myself where my baby went....inevitable.

I think even more than me getting sick of being home I just miss the level of independence I used to have. Not so much as it pertains to money, but I miss having a life outside of the Mr. I hope that doesn't sound bad, but its true. It just comes down to me being bored and sick of the monotony. 

On the bright side I have two more interviews this week. I am bound to get something. I'm staying positive.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Blowing The Dust Off...

Naturally, so much has happened since my last appearance here seeing as how its been several years its hard to know where to start.

I am still with my NNG. We are coming up on five years together and going strong. We now have a house and a seven month old, he named her Iris. She is the love of my life. I quit working at the casino when she was born. Needless to say, seven months, later I am ready to go back to work. Lucky for me I have an interview next week at another casino. (Casinos are my favorite.)

 I am very grateful for the life I have now. I am especially grateful to the NNG (Jacob). If it were not for him willing to work his ass off just so I can be home with the baby, I'd probably be a basket case. I don't want to leave her now, but truth be told I am getting a little stir crazy. In the same breath, the idea of me missing a milestone breaks my heart completely.

In other news, Ive been in school for a year or so now chasing down a degree in accounting. Assuming I pass my current and future classes, I should graduate in the first half of 2015. As happy as I am to be in school I am anxious for it to be over.

 Before I decided to be a housewife I imagined I'd have more time to burn some of my creative oil...not the case. As it turns out, it is hard to find the time in between nursing, studying, laundry, stimulating the growing curiosity of Iris, pumping, cleaning..etc. I suppose I could do better on the schedule front.

Oh well...can't complain really.

Until next time...